altogether Beautiful...

That is what my Jesus is to me. His voice is sweet, and His form is lovely. The most amazing, incomprehensible thing, though, is that I am altogether Beautiful to Him.

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I am a daughter of the King. I am a friend of sinners. I am confident that nothing shall separate me from the love of God. I am seeking a heart after God's own heart. I am righteous in Jesus Christ, apart from the works of the law. I am not ashamed of the Gospel.

Friday, October 28, 2005

my nice prof...

i am so grateful! yesterday, my very nice college algebra prof. helped me study for his test (given thursday) for about an hour. now he is letting me take the test in the testing center sometime before monday evening. he's a nice man! i'll take the test saturday after work, so keep me in your prayers!

btw, i got a new retainer on tuesday. two of my teeth had started receeding and i was moving towards a buck-toothed beaver-smile. anyway, my old orthodontist made the new retainer with a little spring in it to push the worst tooth forcefully back into place- and then told me to wear it all the time for a month to try to fix the damage 6-8 months of not wearing my Old retainer had caused. needless to say, ouch! but it's only been 3 days and my smile's almost completely perfect again :)

and finally, yay! alex and becki are coming to western hills church on sunday! so they can finally see what all the hype is about... smile.


Friday, October 21, 2005

busy fun week

so sunday i decided that i really needed a lot more study time than i had before my next french class... so i decided to drink bunches of coffee and study all night. i studied until a little after 4:30am, then i took a shower and tried to fall asleep around 5:30. i think i managed about 45 min. before waking for work. it was so fun trying to stay awake all day! my french class that evening was awsome because i understood almost everything!

wednesday i went to Bible study, and then clint's to watch lost-- FUN!! and nobody hit me when i did voice-over during the slow quiet boring parts (such nice people :), and i got to see alex and we had a blast as we brazenly defied our 5-minute rule (we're only allowed to be together for 5 minutes, then we have to take a break to calm down and give everyone else a rest from our extreem girlishness and loud laughter). it was so fun.

Last night (thursday) i walked around bricktown with good friend Molly, and then went to the movie "something like heaven." WoW! oh my goodness, that was such a wonderful movie. i Really wasn't sure that i was going to like it, and somehow it was almost weird to watch, but at the ending- man everything came together and left me with that feeling that something really good has just happened.

Cleaned stairwells today. swept them out and then washed them down with a rag. molly and i split the work down 23 flights. fun! now i'm home and i'm getting ready to study and clean my room and watch a movie in french (listening exercises!).

Have a great, God-blessed weekend!

Sunday, October 16, 2005

a bit about me...

Ten years ago i...
Used proper punctuation and capitalization. On my 12th birthday I went to the funeral of a very godly woman. Her husband preached a sermon about his "Proverbs 31 Girl." He went through the entire passage explaining and giving examples of how she had exemplified every one the virtues listed in Proverbs 31- she was pure gold to him. It really gave me a vision as to the kind of woman I wanted to be. About 2 months later I was diagnosed with diabetes. The next summer I moved to OK!

Five years ago i...
Went to Dallas for an 8 weeks academic and spiritual training program for young women. It was an amazing time with the Lord where I surrendered several major areas of my life to Him. It was also there that He confirmed His call for my life...

One year ago i...
Got all A's in my classes, took first year French (loved it!), learned more stuff from the Lord. *Very important lesson learned; my Ministry is not my Life Purpose or Calling... my purpose is to know Christ personally and my calling is to know Him, my Ministry is the stuff I do in obedience to Him. Significance; the stuff I do can be taken away, or done by other people. If I'm not understanding the difference between Purpose and Ministry, then when other's take "my" ministry then I get confused and think I have no purpose... or I get jealous because they took mine, instead of glorying that the work of God is being done. Anyway...

Yesterday i...
Cleaned the house, talked to Luke, went for a walk, meditated on parts of Ps. 16, created a blogspot, got the house messy again, had Leaha over, checked out "facebook" for the 1st time, watched part of a stupid movie, watched TV and talked.

Five snacks i enjoy...
~golden delicious apples
~triskets (sp?) and cheese

Five songs i know all the words to...
"happy birthday"
"when you say you love me" by josh groban (i love him!!)
"heart of worship"
"Amazing Grace"
"America the Beautiful"

Five things i would do with a hundred million dollars...
~go back to africa for missions
~go everywhere for missions
~feed the children
~buy a stunning gown and travel to every famous and wonderful theater and opera house in the world- listening to the most amazing music, watching beautiful ballets, and enjoying theatre old and new... wow, now i'm daydreaming...
~find someone else to manage my money.

Five bad habbits...
~spending too much time online when i should be doing schoolwork
~messying my house, and room, and car, as soon as i clean them
~not taking charge
~either being too forceful or too easily intimidated

Five biggest joys...
~my family
~seeing people happy/ making people smile

Five things i would never wear...
~hmm... i don't know. never say never.

Five favorite tv shows...
hehe, what not to wear :)
~movie club
~king of queens
~everybody loves raymond

Five fictional characters i'd be interested in...
Clark Kent (holy cow!)
Brad Pitt in any of his movies...
ok, now i realize that i'm really shallow here...
Richard Greere (don't even know how to spell his name) in Runaway Bride or Pretty Woman.
The hotel proprieter in Pretty Woman.

Saturday, October 15, 2005

let's try this!

So I've never done anything like this before, so I'm very proud that I think I've figured it out! I don't know who will read this stuff, but people not listening has never kept me from talking before. It took me about four hours (of doing other stuff too) to come up with a title for this blog. I was re-reading different scriptures that have stood out to me lately... but somehow "wholly desirable" (S.S 5:16) seemed like it could be really easily mis-understood.

The Lord has taught me so much in the past 10 months that I wouldn't know where to start if I tried to share it all. I know that reading through Romans, and then re-reading chapters 5-8 over and over again absolutely changed my understanding of myself- not only as God "sees" me, but as He has Made me.

This morning I meditated on Ps. 16:2, "I said to the LORD, 'Thou art my Lord; I have no good besides Thee.'" And it really met me where I was at. God is so good.